heather.: A "negative" post

once-she-decided-to-fly:

Neither dwelling on the negatives nor pretending they don’t exist works for me. But looking for the positives in the negatives does. :)

The Negative: The situation with Elder M shook my testimony - badly. The posts I made about it on here made me look like I was loving life compared to how I…

The pain was great… the suffering was hard. Anything I thought was more important, more ‘true’, more worthy of my time and while - proved that they weren’t. It took me 8 years to get back, and I of course still struggle. No one’s testimony is 100% all the time - but it’s us allowing ourselves to be in a place where we are worthy to have a testimony 100% of the time. Thinking positively, turning to the Lord in prayer - immersing our self in scripture and prayer, being active in church & church activities, forming friendships with other members and people who will support our choices to follow church standards, etc. I understand completely what it’s like to have a testimony on the crutch of someone else, and it shakes you to the core when you ‘lose’ it and realize this - but finding YOUR OWN testimony is the best thing, and you’ll be grateful in the end it had to happen the way it did, so that you could get to where you are. You are an amazing, brilliant uplifting person and I’m glad google led me to your ways, just so that I could throw my failed success two cents your way, so that maybe in hopes, it would help prevent you from every having to make the same mistakes I did.

Thursday Sep 1 10:32pm 11 notes
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